Sunset

Captured sunset at Dufan.

I like the feelings here because it was seen between the wheels of a huge ferris wheel there. Kinda romantic, isn't it? The peachy tone in the middle of masculine gray is the most beautiful thing you can enjoy from the sky seen between those giant wheels.
I've just learnt photography, thanks to Jeremy. He taught me a lot. And this first piece is for him. I hope someday he'll see it and like it.

Old Song

An old song's hummed
We're sitting on that bench
Showered by the sunset

In silence we both understand
No talking, humming, humming

An old song's hummed
We stand and separate

(May, 2010)

Pucat Harap

Pucat langit kunanti hadir
Tentang cinta yang tak punya nyali
Tentang cinta yang mengendap
Menolak pudar

Mengharap semenit kau terpikir
Tentangku, masa lalu yang manis
Dan akankah ada setitik rasa
Terbangun kembali, asal kau bahagia

Kita berjumpa lagi
Sekali lagi
Dan kuharap Tuhan memegangmu
Untukku saja

(January 19, 2010)

*In the middle of chaos, still waited for something that will crash me. In your new world, I was only your rebound, sadly. And the girl who turned her heart from you, is your first concern. I didn't know what did u do back then with her, I didn't know how was your heart, but you did still say you loved me, and missed me. I know now that it was just your place to runaway from the fact that she didn't even text you or reply your messages, and the fact you were afraid to lose her, because - dumb me - I thought you didn't contact her at all, but hey, you were trying, you didn't want to lose her at all, you were serious, none like u said, she was just rebound, but she hurt me first before I ever got chance to hurt her. Whooa, I believed that. I was just fooling myself at those times.

Tak Berseri

Aku tak terlalu berseri
Mengungkap mimpi dan kawan seperjalanannya
Hanya seujung kuku pernah kubuat

Aku tak begitu paham
Tentang arti senyummu
Atau menelaah air matamu

Atau tentang rasa
Yang kadang menyeruak maju
Tak pernah dapati

Aku tak berseri
Bahkan tak cukup nyentrik
Untuk mencintaimu dengan cinta

(February 14, 2009)

*whooa, I found this piece, and the date is perfectly match. The date you really come back to my life, after choosing to leave me and try with the 'someone else'. I was a failure in loving you.

Yang Tak Seberapa Penting Itu

Percakapkan apa saja, asal jangan luka
Lamunkan diriku, lewati bagian perpisahan
Perdengarkan segalanya, kecuali untuk marah

Untuk setiap tawa, aku rela
Karena begitu merinduku akan sapanya
Aku mengangankan hanya ada kau
Dan aku
Juga yang tak seberapa penting itu

(May 4, 2009)

*I am sorry for leaving you like this. To be separated, it's never easy. But thank u for all your efforts in my first year, I know I hurt you so bad, until there's no more place in your heart left to be hurt by me. There's only place for someone prettier and can treat you well, far more than me, something I never seem to be able to do. I did tried. But you chose to go. And I am so sorry.
I want to get back my old memories, which is impossible, the memories before the 'someone else' came.
I cried, you always want me to cry for you. Now I lost count.

Teka - teki

Aku mencuri sosokmu lewat ekor mataku
Menyimpan ratusan semesta
Yang coba kuuraikan
Lalu di antara gema-gema tawa
Tahu-tahu kita melempar teka-teki
Yang kita, kau dan aku terka
Bagiku itu setiap rindu yang tak kuucap
Bagimu itu kebodohan untuk setiap salinan rindu yang percuma

Kusimpan satu, dua tanya
Kutelan
Kausaput dalam hening
Enggan saling meluka
Ini hanya sepotong teka-teki
Jangan kita terhenti tertawa
Toh tak ada jawabnya

(May 4, 2009)

*remember? I used to make you upset, and you used to make me upset too. But it was my happiest time with you, at least for me, you were the best. And I did really love you, I never lie to you or loved other man more than you. I never ever did anything you did to me.

Tentang Kita

Kalau sempat kita saling menggoda tentang sayap
Yang kita tahu tak pernah kita punya

Kalau terucap antara kita
Betapa usangnya tiap mimpi yang muak
Terus kita kecap

Kalau terpecundangi sendi hati kita
Jangan kita takut lelah
Takut - takut satu - satu tetap kita

(written during waiting for the end of Mathemathics try-out in high school, one year ago)

*i love you, you know "you", and it hurts